Week 33

                                


Week 33 was pretty good! I got off of work a half day on Wednesday and was off the rest of the week for Thanksgiving..it was a nice break, but I started to get a little sad and stir crazy being in so much! Every year since Ive been like 15, thanksgiving break has been my favorite time to get out and see friends, catch up with people at the local bars (not at 15 more like 18 for bars), nurse my hangover, and then eat lots of food! I didnt realize how sad it would make me to not be able to get out and go to the bars this year!!! Its been a 10 year tradition that just didnt feel quite right missing this year ! Its not that I wanted to be out drinking, its the spirit of the holidays and seeing everyone out that I was really missing! Some people you see during the holidays that you dont see all year long! Needless to say, I was moping around feeling pretty sorry for myself! Zach was so sweet and only went out one night with his friends.. I was on the verge of tears when he left, but I knew I had to pull it together and let him enjoy the holiday bars even though I couldnt! I put up with one night of him going, but the mention of him going out a second night literally brought me to tears and he stayed in and watched Christmas Vacation with me-now thats a good husband!!

Thanksgiving itself was wonderful and thanks to phenegran I ate an entire plate of food and didnt feel bad at all!!!

My sister and her boyfriend came to town on Friday and we had a lazy, food filled weekend just hanging out and watching movies! It was perfect and just what I needed!

My heartburn is still awful and I keep reminding myself-just a few more weeks! Weeks sound like years though when you have an acid reflux attack in the middle of the night!

I was dreading weighing myself this week.. and proved to be for good reason... 152 pounds!!!! I gained a litle over 2  pounds last week!!!!! Its a good thing it was Thanksgiving so I kind of feel like I had an excuse!!! I have now gained a total of 17 pounds! I keep thinking that sounds like so much, but am forgetting that I am really nearing the end of my pregnancy! I have to keep in mind that a lot of third trimester weight is the baby growing so fast, too!

We have so much to look forward to in the next few weeks and I cant wait to start posting some pictures of little Finleys beautiful nursery! Its definitely going to be the nicest room in the house!!

8 Months and feeling it!

I am 8 months pregnant today! I feel so thankful to have made it this far given our little complications early on. Finley is doing great and was weighing in at 4 pounds 3 ounces at our doctor appointment on Thursday! He gained a full pound in two weeks! That seems to be about average for weight gain at this point and I have read that he will put on about a half a pound a week until delivery! We scheduled my cerclage removal for December 17.. meaning Finley could come anytime after that!! I think he will be born in December, but who knows! He may wait it out and not show up until late January!!! I would be ready to cut him out myself by then!

I have thought a lot about delivery. My first preference would be to let him come on his own and have a vaginal delivery. A highly medicated vaginal delivery.. I want as many drugs as my doctor can legally give me. I dont understand women who WANT to do it naturally. I have no doubt that my body could do it and I know God made us to give birth blah blah blah, but if I dont have to feel it then why would I want to!?!?!
Next, I REALLY dont want to be induced unless medically necessary. I think he will come when he is ready. I am willing to go one week past my due date..that would be  January 21..after that I know I will be threatening my doctors life if she doesnt induce me. And finally, a c section, I am totally not opposed, its just not my first option. I am hoping for option 1. My ideal situation would be that my stiches are removed and he comes naturally within 2 weeks. I get all doped up and deliver him vaginally and we go on our way in the next few days... oh and all the baby weight falls off during delivery!!! I can dream, right!?

All and all I am not nervous about delivery one bit- kind of excited! I had to have the spinal tap done for my cerclage and now I have nothing to fear so long as I get that magical shot during delivery. the shot itself didnt even hurt- which is what I was most concerned about to begin with. So bring on that long needle and numb all my pain!!!

The past week hasnt been so bad- I did go home from work with low blood sugar. I felt pretty bad on Thursday. I had gotten sick the last few nights in the middle of the night and I guess it finally took a toll on me! Rest, water, and a few high calorie meals had me feeling better by the next day. My heart burn has reached an all time level of awful. I didnt think it could get any worse, but oh it has! I wake up in the middle of the night so thirsty, but know I cant drink anything because of how bad the heartburn is! It kills! It has been whats made me sick the last few nights! I feel like I am puking fire. Gross, but true! I then have to sleep sitting straight up! Not ideal, but any position that helps the heartburn and lets me get a few hours of sleep is fine with me! I would probably try standing on my head if I heard that worked!!!

Lastly- cravings! I still havent had any strong cravings like I cant live without a certain food, but I have traded in my cereal dinners for a can of broccli and cheese soup with extra cheese! I eat this for dinner most nights now and even writing about it makes me want it! Its light on my stomach and warms me up with these cold nights! I weighed in at 149.4 this morning!!! dreading seeing 150, but its inevitible! Especially with thanksgiving this week!

I am so happy to be nearing the end of my pregnancy and cannot believe our sweet Finley will be here so soon! I am so excited and have so much to be thankful for! I also cannot wait to chow down on all of the yummy thanksgiving meals this week!!! Pregnancy heaven!!!!!

31 wk 5 days..4lbs 3 ounces

week 31

                                       

Kind of a boring week for pregnancy! I weighed in at 148 this morning. giving me about a 13 pound weight gain so far! Its going to be cutting it VERY close trying to stay at a 20 pound weight gain. I have 9 weeks left, so I can safely figure 9 more pounds...22 pound weight gain isnt so bad! I swear I am all belly right now though.. and although a 13 pound weight gain doesnt sound like very much, its getting really heavy! It hasnt been distributed evenly so I feel like a bird!!! Big stomach and tiny little legs still! I feel I may tip over in a few weeks!!!

Zach and I have been really enjoying and taking advantage of the quiet time in our house. He has been working extra hard to make sure I am happy and comfortable these last few weeks. He has been a huge help to me! Zach took me out for a date night Friday.. dinner and a movie..bonefish and Flight...excellent movie..not so excellent meal! My mom came to town Saturday to get the guest bed out of Finleys room so we can set up his crib!!! I am so excited to get his room done!

I havent had too many new pregnancy symptoms lately.. still heartburn and fatigue. The extreme sleepiness seems to come out of nowehere and I swear it is such an intense tired that it almost gives me anxiety like there is something wrong with me!! My vision gets blurry, I feel a little disoriented, but its nothing more than the sandman! and within minutes I am sound asleep!!

I had some intense stomach and back pains Friday after our movie..so bad that I thought we were going to end up in the ER that night. I decided to try a hot bath and a big glass of ice water first.. sure enough the pain subsided and I got some sleep and havent been bothered since!

Zach and I are really looking forward to the next few weeks.. Finleys room will be just about finished by Thanksgiving, the Thanksgiving holiday itself is just a week and a half away! and then Carley is getting married the weekend after in New Orleans- which will be a nice trip for Zach and I..followed by our coast baby shower the next day in Biloxi! We have lots to do and lots to be thankful for! We cant believe Finley will be joining us so soon!!! We are both so ready for his arrival!

Babymooning. Week 30!

I am feeling good and getting so anxious now that I have hit the 30 weeks!! Zach and I took a little baby moon down to his condo in Perdido.. alothough, we were hoping to go further..get on a plane and spend 4 or 5 nights somewhere.. I am out of vacation time due to my hospital stay and my doctor will not let me fly due to the pressure anyway! SO.. We are very fortunate to have the condo and we had a wonderful weekend!

We got to Perdido late Friday and sat in the hot tub for about an hour..the breeze was perfect. By then, it was 9:30 and this momma was sooo sleepy!!! I slept like a small baby..best sleep Ive had in a REALY long time.

I got up early and sat outside by the pool and read and had breakfast until Zach got up. We hit the beach around 11 and stayed until 1. The weather was amazing.. the high that day was 84 with not a single cloud in the sky! We had lunch at Florabama..which was surprisingly soo good..hamburgers, hot dogs and oysters! Although we could have went somewhere better, the MSU game was on there! Not much of a game, but a fun atmosphere! No one even looks at you strange for ordering a beer while having a noticeable baby bump!! (disclaimer..I took about 3 sips before Zach finished it!!)

We had an excellent dinner at the Fishermans corner that literally put me in a come!!! We got home around 8:30 and I was asleep 10 minutes later!!

Our little getaway was just what I needed and I am feeling so refreshed and ready to finish out these next 2 months! We are hoping to sneak one more trip in during December..before our party of 2 becomes a party of 3!

Finley is doing good and is sooo active! He is starting to kick right underneath my ribs! I find myself gasping for air sometimes because of his placement! I was a little worried on friday when I started to bleed just a little bit, but my doctor assured me everything is just fine and its quite normal to have some spotting around this time in pregnancy..especially after a sonogram that can irritate the cervix!

I am getting nervous about his arrival. Not labor or delivery, but just being in charge of a person...forever!!! I know we will be great with him, it just seems so final and set in stone!! I think the feelings are normal, but they often wake me up in a bit of a panic!

Perdido Key November 3, 12

Zach at the beach!

4d ultrasound 29 weeks 3 days

Finley is weighing in at 3 pounds 3 ounces and he was sooo sweet on the 4d ultrasound!
He had his nose pressed all in my belly the whole time and he slept the whole appointment, but he did cooperate and we were able to get some good shots!
He has pretty little lips and the ultasound tech said he already has little fine peach fuzz on his head.. my guess is blonde like his dads!
His profile shot looks more and more like Zach and I just love it!
The morning of his 4d ultrasound, I was snuggled up against Zachs back around 5 am and Zach started laughing..he could feel Finley kicking like crazy! He settled down and slept all through our appointment though!

Fuck you 3rd trimester...week 29

Hello, hormones. I missed you, welcome back! NOT! You are not welcome in body, hormones!!!!!
My second trimester was AWESOME! I firgured I had a few good weeks into my third trimester before any terrible third trimester side effects kicked in. I actually started to think this pregnancy stuff was easy...thank you for the false hope second trimester..you have proved to be nothing more than a big tease!!!!!
I feel crazy. Like I may make headlines for pulling a weapon and opening fire at an elementary school type crazy! I am mad as a hornet lately.. fat people, ugly people and people with bodily functions especially piss me off. I dog cuss every single person who crosses my path.. in my mind of course. "how are you?" they ask.."would be so much better if i never had to see your fat ugly fucking unproportional face again" is what I reply in my mind.  Cleints come in to work sniffling from their stupid colds make me want to just up and quit. People who come in smacking on candy or gum or mints..I would like to cut their tongues out and start collecting them in a jar behind my desk. I then start to feel guilty for my sour and just mean outlook on people and run myself down cussing them out in my head and rolling my eyes behind their back that I then feel incerdibly sad!!!! Like hopelessly sad! My rage turns to just pathetic crocodile tears that are so pathetic and uncalled for..but oh so necessary at the same time!
I honestly feel like someone has come in and sucked all the happiness from me and is laughing hysterically while watching me suffer. I dont find it funny and I would like it to end. Shopping online used to be the cure to this in my first trimester..but now that doesnt even sound appealing. Its THAT bad.

And as for the human occupying my body..its really about that time you start looking into finding a new home because your about to be evicted! Between my rage and emotional break downs, theres YOU. You were sweet and small..until now. You are large and wiggly and your hiccups are driving me mad!!!!! My heart burn feels like I drank a gallon of gasoline and someone decided to throw a match down my throat and watch me wirthe in pain. I am nauseas again in the mornings and so fucking tired, but cannot sleep. I am up before the sun, before the roosters, before mcdonalds breakfast!!!!!

I would compare myself these days to a crack head.. up early as shit searching the house for my "fix" which may be a glass of water, a coke, the toilet, tums. I am fucking so itchy.. I get the creepy crawler sensation that, yes is normal for pregnant women...oh and crack heads! I have bags under my eyes that look like I have been in a bar fight.. this is ironic because I also feel like Ive got a massive hangover from a bar fight!
So if anyone is ever wondering what the third trimester of pregnancy really feels like...watch TLC's show addicted, find one featuring a crack head..and thats it in a nut shell. Emtionally unstable, physically beat down..bags under eyes, itchy, sleepless,at times euphoric,  nervous, depressed, looking for a "fix", and a general feeling that the world is out to get you!!!!! So heres to you third trimester, you mother fucker!!!!!!

29 weeks of baby carrying



week 29..144.8

 Week 29 has been kind of rough so far.. up and downs..feeling emotional at odd times about odd things. I am typically not a very emotional person, but third trimester pregnancy has brought on some strange emotions. I know that nothing is wrong, but it hits me out of nowhere and I feel hopelessly sad about nothing!! Its crazy!
I wrote an entire rant last week in the midst of a full on emotional breakdown..after re reading it this morning, it frightened me. Hormones are crazyyy!!!!
I am weighing in at 144.8. I dont think I gained a full pound from last week, but any weight gain is still good. I have been nauseas lately and throwing up again, my appetite has ceased and I am actually having trouble finding foods that sound good to me!
I had a major craving for black olives this weekend..and sent zach out at 9 pm to pick up a can! First real bad craving in a long time! I am gload it was olives and not a banana split!!
We have our 4d ultrasound this week- Zach and I are sooo anxious to see our little buddy!

meow from  29 week Finley the fetus and I at our halloween outing at work! 10/26